Bitter Words. ♥

Sunday, December 30, 2007 ♥

HELLO YO!
two days countdown now, dont play MIA can.cannnn(:
so.its new years eve tmr you know.
we both would be dinnering man.
my nails are red(:
wanna see?
too bad.
dude youre going CJ you know. at 8 eh. so ealy la.
how ah.
die.
hahaha.
okay im going off now everyone(:
chengs emoing now most probably so those who wanna mess up her thoughts again, back off(:
warning to all those at CJ, feng cheng cheng is not what she seems :O
haha i say that all the time, but, i dont mean it la.
no offence C :D
( C : none taken G! )
byebye!
G<3

Cheng
10:35 PM

Wednesday, December 26, 2007 ♥

killer bubblys

MUAHAHAAHAHA

C i still cant believe you got drunk on wine and champagne.dudeee who gets drunk over that!

besides me la, special case.hahaha.

C is very happy, cos why? she has ME.

muahaha.

and ni she me yi si huh put some bike on my blog!
but its so pretty..HAHAH.

falala.and.

since we're going for dinner tmr, i stole a pack of garlic chilli from stephy!

so portable i know :D

G knows that C misses, so, C , cheer up :D

hahaha okay my mum is playing with davinci code's puzzle la.like look at the time.

and nikki ate my cookie.

and hers.

so she had 1 + 1 = 2

TWO!

piggggggggggg.

i shall tell you what i got for christmas.

1)presents!

hahahaha

im bored and youre almost off to your 'healthier skin' sleep.

what times dinner tmr?

hahah(:

go to stephy's blog!

its so funny.

my lil friend below my chin is sooo obvious la:/

hhha

using flats ah?

bu yao la..

ke ji fa da you know, ppl are eating more and growing more..

heels are so necessary to fit in into modern day society.agreed?

yes.

C, what do they feed you in china ah?
i wanna be tall too.

new york new york is so old news now.thats sad.we ate everything on the menu:/

we need to stop eating.

me la not you(:

and.you do realise you have to come to acsi right?

you have to.

im not giving you a choice(:

its a better cert anyway..

besides, sei's most prob staying in hwa chong..

smart ass.

understand?

i'll talk to mrs feng :D

G<3

Cheng
1:24 AM

Sunday, December 23, 2007 ♥

nineteen minutes.

the hell with putting your heart on your sleeve; it's likely to get ripped off.
if you lie to yourself long enough, does it becomes the truth?
even if every word i said felt like swallowing glass,
you've taken that one tragic step; now free-fall.

i'm sorry we have to communicate this way, but it's the only way left. a month's decision is for things to cool a little, for you to rethink. you'l realise otherwise i'm sure. it's been exactly 7 days since we've not talked. i can't say i don't miss you cos i do. but y'know it's better for you like that? i don't really know how to explain it to you. it's not only about the fight but of what we're becoming. alarming, isn't it? i'm letting you know that honestly, i can't leave it as well. you know i take all my loved ones really seriously. but we've got to try. it's most probably only heat of the moment. like fireworks, it can get really pretty, but it vanishes completely after a second. okay i know i'm being quite drama here-.- rmb you asked me what i want for xmas? i want all of us to be happy. i want us to not live in regrets. i want us to not suffer under someone else. can you give me that?

hi! i know it's been a while but i was kinda, busy. hurr. photo shoot's done & i'm glad to say it went smoothly.? but! that doesn't mean nike will take me duhhhh-.- they have a billion & one models to choose from so i'm not keeping any hopes up. but still, i'm happy that shoot's completed cos i was DEAD TIRED. plus, my eyes were quite puffed up on that day due to stuffs. kay forget it.

due to someone's demand, i'm supposed to post what i've done everyday-.- haha this is how retarded la can. tskk okay fine so,

Sun(16th), towned with m & i finally solved this huge headache of mine. HEHH.

mon(17th) & tues(18th) were busy solving this particular problem-.-

wed(19th), golden compass & city hall with g. omg this day. hahaha. i wanted to go esplanade so after cine we headed to marina. but the thing is, we were both idiots at public transport & we wanted to act smart & take train over. so we boarded the train, & went all the way to, marina bay, cos we weren't sure where to stop so we were like, 'aiyah that one have the word marina so must be correct!'=.= we were still happily laughing at how empty the train station of marina bay was as we came out from the train station. then we Froze, literally. cos all we saw were, trees & trucks &, construction workers-.- so obviously we ended up at the wrong place la but being act-smart idiots, we didn't head back to the train station, but to a nearby bus stop. guess what? there were only two buses, 400 & 402. we checked the directions of these two buses & obviously took the bus with a longer list of stops la, hoping to find civilisation. so after waiting for a good half hour, 400 finally deicded to come & we gladly hopped on-.- i swear it was freezing in the damn bus. kay nvm. then, as the bus went on we found it a bit strange cos all we saw were either trees or constuction sites & we were far from civilisation la. so change of plans, we decided to wait until the bus takes us to a less ulu place so that we could call a cab instead-.- so we went on & suddenly both of us noticed the s'pore flyer that big wheel wheel thingy? yeah that & we got freak excited cos we felt like we were heading the right way in the bus! but after going on & round that flyer the bus totally went another way-.- &, every stop seemed so ulu we didn't wanna get down la. hurr so we waited, & waited, until the bus finally pulled up at this stop where EVERYONE went down. we stared at each other not sure if we should go down too? cos it wasn't like a bus ternimal or whatever it was just yet another bus stop. buttt! we suddenly realised where we were at- right opposite the bus stop we've hopped on. omg i swear, you should've seen our faces okay. we looked like, IDIOTS!=.= hahhha okay so we followed everyone else & got down, laughing our heads off at OURSELVES as we walked back to the train station-.- as we finally learnt not to kid with the public transport of s'pore anymore we took the train back to city hall. aim was to walk to esplanade, but due to tiredness & stress from earlier on, we settled in new york new york to have lunch+dinner. we totally saw the flip flip menu & got over-excited over food cos we ordered one dish from each section & the waitress totally stared at us like O.o?! haha yeah like that. our plan was to eat & rest for a little before going to esplanade but in the end we ended up having a 10-ppl-servings feast & we were oh-so-happy when the food came okayy we totally had Damn-Satisfied look on our faces & we burst out laughing at each other's facial expression not knowing it looked the same on our own. HAHA. & while eating we started a true-history-talk & OMG, we found out So Many Things. i totally found out Damn Alot of things i've not known & it's really, really, wow, i can only say, surprising & shocking yo. but it's alr over & all in the past so, let it be. we weren't even halfway through the conver but we were done with food & the place was kinda chasing us out by asking a cillion times what else we'd like to order-.- HAHA so after super sinful dessert, (deep fried mars bar) we waved goodbye to diets & realised we've had that meal for almost 3 hours. HAHAH. by the time we wanted to head over to esplanade mom started being crazy & we were freak lazy too so we left. hahha what a day right. but generally, the two idiots had fun. (:

thurs(20th), met g in town & headed to sentec to find dee. had a fun & very laughable time all day & dinner at new york! (yes, again! HAHHA) & i was telling dee abt the gay guy there, so i pointed at him to dee, he turned ard & dee & i hurry hid our faces with the menu, & he spotted g so he winked at her. HAHAHAHHAHAHHA g was totally O.0?!?!?! and dee & i totally laughed till we couldn't take it anymore. hahhha damn hilarious. then when we ordered, that same gay came over. when he started to speak, dee & i were totally not under any laughter-control & so g had to do all the polite talking & ordering while we both almost died trying to laugh w/o a sound. hahahha how retarded la yes i know. after dinner we finally went over to esplanade rooftop & totally went crazy over there. with retarded posts & dee suck at acting emo-.- then we got tired so sat down had this longgggggg talk & felt better afterwards.? yeahh. omg before i forget, there were cockroaches!!! (DOUBLE YUCK) but dee chased them all away. yay. haha. then yadayada & left for home. dee got duper emo when we were parting cos it'l be 2 weeks plus before we'l see her again, she's going nz. :'( actually, she's already in nz right now. & dee got me the smell i've been searching for for a damn long time la! i realised why i've not found it, cos i've not looked at estee! but omg, in the end it really is esteee mannn. hahha pleasures intense, <3
okay hi dee who's in nz, take care yooooo, 2 weeks will pass really fast. don't emo la. we miss you!

fri(21st), spent the day talking to q abt stuffs. i swear i spend freak alot of time on this matter. hurr.sat(today), out in the morning with parents & will be out later with mom to complete the rest of the xmas shopping. (:

i can't actually believe i typed so much but i guess it's detailed enough la right? okay i take that as a yes la. (: HEHH. i'm having this very 'serious' talk with m right now-.-

alrights so i'm off, take care & byebye. (:

Cheng
9:51 AM

Saturday, December 15, 2007 ♥

LEAVE IT.

i don't know if it's more of anger or frustration.
i'm just very, irritated.
whatever okay? whatever.

i have other things to worry about in case you wanna know,
like for example my shoot tmr.
it's freaking important to me cos of the nike ad
which will most possibly not want me,
but agency's wanting me to just go for a try so
i'l have to work my best no matter what.

you should know that better than anyone else.
i'm in no mood to play this fighting game right now.
or anytime in the future in that case.
okay in the first place,
i don't even wanna fight with you!
don't you see it?
rahhhh!
nvm. whatever.
whatever
whatever
whatever.

cheng's going out for air.
LEAVE IT.
:'(

Cheng
6:39 AM

Friday, December 14, 2007 ♥

fidget with the camera, & pass me the cash.

if you hurt, cry. if you rage, strike out. if you hope,

get ready for a disappointment. it is how you choose to rmb.

& you disgust me out.

alright so i'm a part time model once again-.-

first shooting's on saturday for the portfolio

& after which there's this nike shoot which i really really wanna go?

it needs travelling to china & usa for shootings man.

like, omg cool.

but! i don't think nike will want me:/

okay nvm i won't dream for it:/

sat's shooting will stretch for one whole day

which will very likely tire me out like crap.

there's a total of 100+ photos to take & they told me to,

keep my skin in good condition.

yeah sure & a pimple just popped out today,

how wonderful-.-

i really don't fancy modeling but my brain's filled with $$$

hurr okay plus the fact that i rather work than,

okay nvm.

shopping this afternoon cos i'm a happy girl. (:

& you're calling today yes?

cos i can't rmb which is the alternate days alr.

i really have alot to complain abt :((

if you're willing to listen that is-.-

my showering patterns has been greatly disturbed lately-.-

& sei just made me a happier kid today.

haha. okay i'm off.

* kiss kiss, take care & bye! <3

Cheng
3:39 AM

Tuesday, December 11, 2007 ♥

lucid, shine.

hahaha. just when i've stopped looking for jobs,
i'l be starting work tmr.?
& i don't even know what i'l be doing or where i'l be working at.
hahh, my job is so totally cool=.=

TODAY, GAP SALE IS ON.
woooo.
let's see what i can find.
dinner later, double yay. (:

ytd, there was OB reunion.
towned then vivoed then left the OB guys
& went back to town again for me & g & kho.
& we played a game called,
dare or dare.
HAHAHHAHAHHA.
took turns to embarrass ourselves by doing retarded dares,
& were probabaly mistaken as mental patients most of the time-.-
but whatever mans.
i had to shout to the dustbin &
kho had to catwalk down the road &
g had to pose the YOYO pose,
& more.
HAHAHHA.
okay but generally, we had fun so there. (:

oh yeah & cousin L patched with sis in law!
hahha, claps claps.
yayyy i'm super excited for them la idk why-.-
hahhhaha their happy ending, coolll.
cousin L you'd better learn to treasure her now.
okay not like you'l read this but yeahh. haha.

& thanks for last night yo.
you're always the best.
or did i tell you that alr?
hahha, even when i fell asleep on the phone.
& i was the one reminding you not to do that-.-
& for my nonsense speeches.
i feel so guilty:/ hurr.
<3

Cheng
9:09 AM

Saturday, December 08, 2007 ♥

hero/heroine

30 days of night grossed me out
& the tattooist obviously have no storyline-.-
i don't understand the ratings thank you.
so erm hi people planning to watch these two shows, think twice.

guess sale came on only after i bought all my stuffs.
totally =.=''
so my plan now is to STOPPP shopping and wait.
hahhha can window shop la but!
must rmb not to bring card/cash when i'm out.
hehh idiotic sales better hurry come.
cheng wanna shopppppp. hurr!

i'm giving up on finding jobs la totally not keen on it anymore-.-
hahha anyways i'm busy with auto transmission vehicle training,
aka driving trainings.
hahha still have theory lessons & tests to go to
oh my tiann i wanna pass them!

i've been out everyday i miss using my com-.-
oh yeah & the dinner on mon dee,
you choose place ar i don't care.
hahhaha.
night town is pretty. (:
nights are pretty too. (:
generally, i'm a happy kid. (:

hey youuu!
my ear's gonna die from radiations soon.
hahhah kidding la.
sorry abt last last night yeah.
tantrum. sorry.

current songs,
pieces- sum 41
kiss kiss- chris brown ft. t-pain
bleeding love- leona lewis
too close for comfort- mcfly
shadow of the day- linkin park
hero/heroine- boys like girls
about you now- sugababes
apologize- one republic (original)
25 minutes- michael learns to rock

alrights i'm off,
take care & byeee <3

Cheng
7:07 AM

Saturday, December 01, 2007 ♥

for all you know,

teardrops, they keep visiting. :(

i guess i'm in absolutely no position to say i miss you now.

after all i've said to you, i think all's crystal clear.

but there's this clutch on my heart making it harder to breath;

everyday, every minute, every second.

somehow, everything i do reminds me of you.

you were too good to be true,

& i just can't match up.

you were always there when i needed you, you never got tired.

you never turned away, you never left me alone.

you were different.

but instead i went to push you away.

cos i was so scared we'd get hurt in the end, like every other r/s.

but i didn't realise you'd hurt, right now, right this minute, right this second.

& now it's hurting me too.

i'm not sure if this is all guilt, taking over me.

but all i know right now is, i miss you.

more than you'd ever know, i miss you.

more than i've ever expected, i miss you.

a month ago, this day had been great for me somehow.

but right now, i just wanna hear your voice.

i'm not sure if i'm making the right decision posting these.

idk how things will go.

maybe i'm wrong to let you know.

i still don't know how i feel abt you really, this i have to admit.

but i know when you're here, i feel like, like i can lean on sth

when you're not here, i don't feel so fantastic.

enough said, anyways i hope you're good.

idk why my tagboard's failing on me-.-

reply tags.

g: got it all out. & i still feel so :/ but thanks g. hurr. i can't wait for sat. (((: hurr. & how did you get my password right?! omgg. yeah they make me happy. (: thanks woman. <3

jimmy: thanks there! HAHA only currently la but i'm not an emo kid okayy. don't get it wrong. hurr. yeah the song's not badd! xie xie ni. (:

Cheng
10:16 AM